Metro 20% sale....

Hubby and me had a blast shopping at Paragon last night.. We got these for Little Habib at such a bargain cos Metro's having a 20% sale this weekend and also many of the kids clothings shops had sale too...

AIF ! ....

Alhamdullilah Its Friday.

So many things to say.. just that Im so swarmped with work.. B.U.S.Y

I'll Be taking a break next week... cant wait for the mini holiday.

Last night, tears, hugs, just being supportive to Su, ustaz wife. We all felt the loss.
Ustaz brought Tareem to the mosque. I wonder y ' those people ' dont appreciate that.

Ustaz led Ratib and Isyak prayers for the last time at Ansar. Ustaz doa for Masjid Al-Ansar to be prosperous and to be away from Fitnah. *sobz*

Sometimes hijrah is needed and there is hikmah to this episode.

Innallàha wa malâikatahû yusallûna 'alan-nabiyy, yâ ayyuhalladhîna âmanû sallû alayhi wa sallimû taslîmâ. (Allah and His angels send blessings on the Prophet: O ye that believe! Send ye blessings on him, and salute him with all respect.) 33:56

NeuroGain...

Im not so stress up with milk woes these days..It must be because Im slowing coming to terms with the fact that my baby is in the group of 'babies who dont like milk' category.

Little Habib have been taking NeuroGain supplements which the GP recommended he takes since he dosnt drink much milk.

So GOD willing, NeuroGain will supplement his DHA / AA intakes.

Hubby bought it at the NTUC pharmacy and it cost ard $17.00, has 60 capsules.

I got my mum's helper to open the capsule, mix the oil in his apple purees and feed it to him for tea break.

But he doesnt really enjoy it, as its so fishy and will leave his face smelling all eggy. Poor baby...

I think I'll let him finish this bottle and then buy him Neutroplex which cost lesser and its to open his appetite.
I'd rather he eats fish and eggs but its seems that when we feed him that, he doesnt really like it..so as for now, its still brown rice or cereal with ikan bilis or chicken.

Metro member Sale...

This just came in my mail...being a Metro card member , Ive been invited for a close-door '' exclusive Shopping Experience with Metro '' this Thursday night between 7pm-10pm.

That's what its says in the card...

wow.. never attended 1 of these before although Ive seen it happening when I went shopping.

But too bad, Ive promised myself that I'd attend Ustaz last ratib session at Masjid Ansar..

Guess I have to give shopping a miss.. even then, I don't think i need anything at the moment except new Tops... those that's fashionable but at the same time and can cover my hips and butt area...

On a more elated note, Our good friend Fin and his wife will be expecting their first baby in November this year.. Insyallah.

Im really happy for them. Fin will be a good father Im sure and Little Habib will have another play pal.

Actually, Im secretly hoping that the gender is a girl but Hubby forbits me from hoping such things...

Fin had visited little Habib when Little Habib was a new born and 'chope' Little Habib to be his son-in-law, and I found that very amusing yet wouldnt that be nice !

oops.... gleeful Ummi.. Okie Little Habib, U can make your own choice... but promise Ummi you will love me more okie..

oops again !

I wonder if the phrase ''All Good Things Must Come to an End '' is really indubitable.

The rumour which I tried to avoid came to light yesterday night when we went for Isyak prayers at Masjid Ansar. Its true. My ustaz will be leaving the mosque. **sobs**

Masjid Ansar will never be the same again for me. Habaibs will not go there anymore since Ustaz will no longer be there. For now, my ustaz will be at Masjid Abdul Razak. His ratib AL HADDAD sessions will be held for the last time this thursday at Ansar before it moves to Abdul Razak the following week.

After about 2 years plus, Yemen and the influence of Tarim will no longer be felt again at Masjid Ansar.

I had vision Little Habib to go to Ansar Kindergarten and learn from our Ustaz. Really I can only plan but Allah is the one who determins.

Anyway, hubby says everything that happens mesti ada hikmah nya. Maybe Masjid Abdul Razak really needed a stronger influence after Ustaz Ahmad Semait passed away. The legacy of the ulama's must be maintain at that holy and blessed mosque. And ustaz, a young and pious student from Tareem is a capable candidate.

Im glad that I stay in the east where Masjids and Sarabat teas are plenteous.

Still I ache that Ustaz is no longer just across the road.

Our weekend...

Little Habib taking a peek at the jemaah prayers at Masjidil Ansar. It had been a fun day out for him. First he visited his new born cousin Muhammad Rayyan. Super cute baby. Although there was no chance of them to talk, Ummi was sure that they would be good cousins when they grow up.. insya'allah.

Then Ummi and Abah Brought him to the Library !

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On Saturday, Ummi brought Little Habib to the library in the hope that he would be interested in books. Also to get him used to the library atmosphere... It was our first trip there together.At first, Little Habib was happy, curious and delighted seeing something new !

Then he thought ''oh what the hack, since I dont know how to read, lets see if this book can be eaten ?''

Yucks ! After the dreadful tasting session of the books, he had some climbing around session on the benches .....

After much crawling, climbing and attempts to make friends with some kids there, we all went home for dinner.

Yayness..we'll definitely go back there again since its so near our home...

Al Akhlaq Kul Karim @ Masjid Aleem Siddique

Yesterday night, Hubby and me went to Masjid Aleem Siddique for the talk by Habib Thohir Abdullah Alkaff from Indonesia.

It was time well spent, my only regret was I didnt bring Little Habib with me. I had thought that the Muslimah area would be packed, just like the time when Habib Umar Bin Hafiz was there, but actually, there were a total of only 15 muslimahs in the crowd.
It wasnt much of a crowd too for the men side was also not crowded. It was the same old usual faces.

I could have brought Little Habib along, since he was very quiet when I brought him to masjid Ansar for the 2nd time last Thursday. Anyway Little Habib turned 9mths yesterday, and he has since progress to say ''DADA'' a name he calls my father. His crawling skill have also progress to a faster speed. Alah Buchuk Ummi. Muacks.

Okie back to the ceramah.

Habib Thohir is actually the student of the late ulama' from Mecca Habib Mohamed Al Maliki.

He started of the talk by saying that in surah Al Baqarah, it is stated that there will be many challenges given by Allah s.w.t to us when we want to do ibadat EG: going to the mosque but if Allah s.w.t gives us Taufiq, we will be able to go. Those who do not get Taufiq from Allah s.w.t will not be able to make it to the mosque so we must always pray for Taufiq.

One of the garden of heavens is actually majlis ilmu / zikrullah. So if we go to majlis ilmu, we are actually sitting in the gardens of heavens, the Raudha.
How we spend our time in this world will be shown in Akhirat. Our life is like a filem thats being recorded, and the video will be played in front of Allah s.w.t and all to see.
At that moment, we will cry looking at ourselves doing things such as maksiat or unconstructive things like hanging out at clubs, sitting at joints doing nothing, but these tears will not save us, because Allah s.w.t have said in the Quran and also through our prophet Muhammad s.a.w of what if his rules and how we should lead our lives.
But if we have spend our time going to majlis Ilmu, we will be happy to look at ourselves as hamba Allah s.w.t who had followed Rasullulah s.a.w advise to seek ilmu, busy ourselves to heightend our amal soleh. This should be our hope. As our age progress, we can do amalan yang diredai Allah s.w.t di Dunia and we will be mukmins yang sejati di Akhirat.

Yesterday's topic was Al Akhlaq Kul karim or Budi Perkerti Yang Baik.

When talking about Aklaq, we should always refer to Rasullulah s.a.w as he has thought us the guidance to good Aklaq and has shown many examples to good Aklaq eg good ibadah, good parenting, good business manners, good neighbourly manners.

Habib Thohir said, whats is the use of having high Ilmu but do not have good Aklaq ? If one do not have good Ahlaq, Rasullulah s.a.w will not face us when in Akhirat.

Ever since young, Rasullulah s.a.w had good Akhlaq. No one has ever heard Rasullulah s.a.w said anything dirty such as a 'bad word'. He has never told lies or looked down on anyone.
Once, during the Hajj season, Rasullulah s.a.w berdakwa ajaran Allah to the people of Medinah and Yemen who had came to Mecca. This made the people of Mecca unhappy as Rasullulah s.a.w teachings were not the same to what their ancestors have thought them.

So they said Rasullulah s.a.w is a liar, but someone said in the crowd '' NO he is not, I have never heard him telling a lie.''

Then they say Rasullulah s.a.w is a tukang sihir, but someone in the crowd said '' No he is not, I have never seen him practising witchcraft.''

Then someone said Rasullulah s.a.w is a Dukun, but someone in the crowd said '' No he is not, I have never seen him do blackmagic.''

So the Jahils could not say anything as their Batin knows that Rasullulah s.a.w is telling the truth but they had to say it in Zahir.
But Rasullulah s.a.w kept patient.

Habib told the Taif incident story where even the children were told to mock at Rasullulah s.a.w. But Rasullulah s.a.w doa that one day, the Taif residents would follow his teachings, if not them then hopefully, their children and grandchildren. And Today, the people of Taif are all following rasullulah s.a.w teachings.

We should all follow Rasullulah s.a.w Aklaq. His family, wives, sahaba have never heard anything bad from Rasullulah s.a.w. Once someone asked Siti Aishah ( r.a ) to tell him of Rasullulah s.a.w aklaq. Now how was she going to explain since Rasullulah s.a.w had so many good attributes ? But the smart Aishah said '' Aklaq Rasullulah s.a.w is the quran Nur Karim. What was beings asked to do in the Quran, Rasullulah s.a.w did and what was asked to NOT do in the Quran, Rasullulah s.a.w did not do.''

Good relations should exist between siblings, neighbours and between the clever and the less knowledgeble.
The fortunate should feel sad for the less fortunate.
The young should respect the elder, the elder shoud love the young.
We must respect our teachers, ustazs and ustazahs because they have high amount of Ilmu. If these respect does not exist, how can we say we are UMAT Rasullulah s.a.w ?

Habib said he remembered a story about a wali Allah s.w.t Habib Hussein Bin Muhammad bin Thohir AlHadad.
Habib Hussein had gone to Bogor to visit his brother habib Alawi AlHadad. Now we all know that Bogor is very cold at night.
So came night fall, Habib Hussein slept on the cold floor. When his brother saw him, he asked Habib Hussein why he was not sleeping on the bed where its warmer ?
Habib Hussein said '' How can I sleep on the bed ? I am scared that if you my brother wake up in the middle of the night to solat Tahajjud on the cold floor and I am on the warm bed, where is my respect is my respect for you my brother ?''
Such is the ahlaq of a wali Allah s.w.t.

Habib Thohir also mention that if anyone has said anything bad to us or speak ill of us, we must show them our better side.
He told us of the story of Habib Umar whose wife had just given birth. So his students were all going to visit him bringing coffe powder as a gift.
On the way to Habib Umar's house, his student met with a man who asked them where the were going. The students said excitedly that they were going to visit their teacher Habib Umar who just got a baby.
The man looked unhappy and say his donkey had also just given birth. This made the students angry and walked off to habib Umar's house.
When they arrived at habib Umar's house, habib Umar asked them what had happened along the way. At first, they were reluctant to say what they heard, but soon, one of the sudents narrated the story of what the man had said. Habib Umar just smiled.
After the students were all done with visit, Habib Umar told them to bring him to see the man whose donkey had just given birth. When they arrived at the man's house, Habib Umar knocked on the door. When the man opened the door, he was shocked to see Habib Umar. But habib Umar said with a smile, '' Congratulations, we are all here to offer you this coffee powder as a gift as we had heard your Donkey had just given birth ! ''.
The man was so embarrased and ashamed that Habib could still offer him a gift after he has childed Habib Umar. Soon after, the man repented and became habib Umar's student.
This is call Aklaq nabawiya. Following the aklaq of Rasullulah s.a.w.

Habib also told us many other stories such as how Imam Abu Hanafi helped his jewish neighbour to get out of prison eventhough his neighbour had disturbed him on many nights with the sound of the guitar and eventhough his neighbour was a non muslim.

Also about the story of how Rasullulah s.a.w helped Abu Lahab out of the hole which Abu Lahab had fallen in when he forgot he had digged the hole to make Rasullulah s.a.w fall in when Rasullulah s.a.w was on the way to the mosque for Subuh Prayers.

Rasullulah s.a.w always returned bad things done to him with good things. We should not say '' Alah tu nabi, kita bukan nabi, kita manusia biasa.'' No we cannot say that. Rasullulah s.a.w did all these so that it will be an example to his Umat.

Habib Thohir said he was sad to read that Islam has been labelled terorrist, evil, murderers. Actually, this is not Islam. This is not the teachings of our Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. This is his umats doing. So we cannot blame Islam. But the sad thing is, people have labelled Islam as such.

In Akhirat, our main aim is to get the syafaat of Rasullulah s.a.w. No matter how high we think is our Ibadah, or our ilmu, It may not be enough when its being weight against our bad deeds. Only with Syafaat Rasullulah s.a.w can we be saved.
Rasullulah s.a.w have promised us that he will stand near the well to give us water to quench our thirst during the day of resurrection before ( some ulama's says after ) we cross the Silatulmustaqim bridge. We always forget that we have to cross silatulmustaqim but it us a scary bridge that we must never forget because Hell us underneath it. Even the companions of the prophet who are solihins are scared of this bridge.

In Akhirat, our legs, hands , eyes, will all speak to save us in front of Allah s.w.t , and Rasullulah s.a.w will stand beside us to give us syafaat. What will we do if Rasullulah s.a.w dont want to give us syafaat ?
He will not give us syafaat if we do not follow his teachings and if we hurt him but doing bad things. Will Allah s.w.t save us if his beloved do not want to ? Think about it....

So are we all ready to face rasullulah s.a.w in akhirat with what little amalan that we have ?

Ikutlah Aklaq Nabawiya, Akhlaq Muhammadiya , Akhlaq Rasullulah.

HABIB Thohir ended off the ceramah with a teary doa. Everyone in the room Im sure felt the need to change. Insyallah.

And we ended our visit to Masjid Alleem Siddique with a small feast of Curry daging with roti. Hmm I could see hubby eating 2 rounds, as he finish off Habib Thohir's leftover.. ''Hubby.. hairan lah... makan banyak pun tak gemok2.'' Heee.....

Khushu' and forgiveness

Its time for me to muhasabah once again.

For the last few days, I been thinking a lot abt my prayers. I have started treasuring all prayer times once again since Little habib is able to sleep through now and he is abit more independent.

My solah keeps me sane. Its something that I look forward for whenever I'm down as if its a private moment with my creator.

But... I realised that I haven't been khusyuk in my prayers lately and to offer complete concentration is just so unlikely since my mind strays off during most prayers. Not throughout but at least the first or 2nd rakaat before I realised and then try so hard to concentrate again.

Ive missed doa qunoot for 2 days running.. damn. Qunoot is a good doa. Wasted.

My mind wonders off thinking about little Habib or housework mostly.

Y is it one can pray in concentration when in Allah's house but when if outside of it, one slacks ? I for one am like that.

Allah(s.w.t) is everywhere. Our Prophet Muhammad ( s.a.w ) says '' IHSAN is when you worship Allah ( s.w.t ) as if you are seeing him and if you are not able to do so, then do it believing that he is seeing you.''

Scary thought that Allah is seeing me when Im in a prayer position yet my mind is somewhere else. Maybe I should pray with my eyes close and my forehead frowned like how hubby prays ?

Ustaz Hasan Saifouridzal will read this phrase before every prayer that he leads.

'' Qad afla hal mukminuun. Alladzi nahum fi solatihim khoshiuun ''
Verily the believers who succeed, are those who are absorbed in their prayers'' ( al-mu'minun : 01-02 )
I guess Its good to recite it before I raise my hand to start my prayers just so it can serve as a reminder to me.

I read this small booklet this morning. '' Introduction to Islamic Spirituality'' written by Sheykh Mohd Ibrahim Bin Mohd Kassin.
Most of us know him as Ustaz Ibrahim, principal of Alfathu learning centre. A wise and pious Ustaz who teaches in English as well.

Coincidentally, this small booklet consist of a guide to Ihsan, Iman and Taqwa. I got this free from Wardah Bookstore.

In it , ustaz wrote that Khushu' or absorption can only be achieved by inner-purification where Allah is visualized in your heart through practice of inner realisation.

In the process, one must always remember to seek Allah's forgiveness. The prophet s.a.w says All children of Adam are sinners and the best sinners are those who seek forgiveness.

Innallaha yuhibul tawabiina wa yuhibul mutathohirii na
Allah says: Verily Allah loves those who seek forgiveness and those who love cleanliness ( al-Baqarah : 222 )

yes, I am nothing but a sinner who prays for forgiveness for I do not want to face Allah s.w.t in his court, filled with sins not atone for...
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ohhh...don't we all ? Insyallah...

'' Aaaa Bahh ''

Not only have my baby begun crawling forward, this Little Habibi of mine also spoke his 1st word yesterday night.

Its official...His first words is Aaa Bahh !

We were at Mil's place and hubby had gone to masjid Alkaff for Isyak. SIL and me were both playing with Little Habib. He was on my lap, then he looked up at me, look in my eyes and say ''Aaa bahh '' .... It was so clear. No more vagues sounds. The words came out with his tiny voice.

I looked at him and say '' Abah ? '' : )

Then he said ''Ah bah '' again.

So I called MIL and FIL and we all say ''ABAH ABAH '' to him, hoping he would say it again, and true enough he said it again... so we explained to him that Abah go mosque.

When Hubby came home, we told him that his son has said his 1st words and hubby was estatic, that his son's official first words was ''Abah''.

Attempts to get Little Habib to say other words like Ummi, nani, Tok , Dadi , Dada were all futile.

Nah, Im not jealous...its great that Little Habib and his Abah have become great companions.

So for now, his has his 1 and only real vocab and thats ''Abah''.

Sunday's thoughts...

Its a quiet Sunday... Im going to pick up Little Habib soon cos I put him at my mum's place this morning. Went for my fardhu ain's class at Masjid Mydin, then I went to NTUC pharmacy to get Little Habib some supplements since he dosent like Milk very much. I bought Nutrogain. Hope its helps him abit...

In my fardhu Ain class, Ustaz suhaimi talked abt bab Wudhu for fikh and for Tauhid, he told us abt the Kadianis.

Nothing much to blog. Im trying to be strong each day... and i really feel that everything that happens is of God's will and there is a lesson behind each test.

I do feel calm. Ive cleared any hatred. Sincerly I wish EVERYONE well. God is my witness to that. All Praises to Allah.

*smiles*

I also bought Hj Aminah Adil's book at Wardha. Title : MUHAMMAD THE MESSENGER OF ISLAM. His Life and Prophecy.
Hj Amina is the wife of Sheikh Nazim Adil Al-Haqqani from the Naqshabandi tariqa.

Its really thick with lots of storys, a more compleate set containing stories, Hadiths. I havent read much but when I flipped through, I can tell that reading this book would be very engaging. The stories are very interesting and the words she uses are very easy to understand.

Bro Muhsin also made me a Wardha member. Its a point system. Wardha might make me broke. hee...nolah..I just have to avoid it. Their books are all so interesting.

Im trying to post a pic of the book but dont know y today, Blogger dont allow me to post pictures.

I guess thats it.

AIF !

Alhamdullilah, Its a blessed Friday....

Im feeling good lah.. the weather's fine and Little Habib recognises me and hubby even more these days.

I really look forward to bringing him home because, thats when we really play and wrestle with him. His favourite activity this time is opening and shutting the microwave door and hanging on to hubby's legs when hubby is praying.. reminds me of how Saidinah Hassan hangs on to Rasullulah ( s.a.w ) back when Rasullulah ( s.a.w ) was praying... *smiles*

Ive lost some weight this week, wuhoo..slim ummi !..ok, except the pouch.. well, can't blame the pouch, Im just too lazy to do crunches !

I suddenly rindu so many ppl this morning.. my dad, my mum, mak uchu , my mil, its like we r so near yet so far.

Later, im gonna get my Hj Aminah Adil's book. Insyallah.
Ive never read any of her books before , so Im quite excited.

Yesterday night, hubby and me brought Little Habib to masjid Ansar. We want to let him get use to masjid environment and also Hubby wanted to resume his hobby of praying Isyak at the mosque.
Alhamdullilah, Little habib was so well behaved. It was almost as if he was in a sedated state. I got a cushion and he lie on it. He just look at me and all the people who walked pass and wave at him.
The only time he cried was when Ustaz Hasan tried to carry him. Then he quietened down and look at Ustaz again, and when ustaz tried to tickle his cheeks, he cried again.
But Amazingly, when Ustaz went to Little Habib's ears and sing this poem-liked song ( i cant remember the lyrics, but it has the names Hasan n Hussein in it ) , Little Habib just kept quiet and listen, maybe he was swayed by the lullaby.
My baby seldom smiles at people he is not familiar with too.. thats something that i have to work on.

This week, Ive been reading this book '' QASHIDAH ALBURDHA & ADDAIBAIE & 40 SOLAWAT PILIHAN : Susunan Ustaz Drs HM Noor Tijany.

My 'sister' Sarinah, bought this book for me when she sense that i needed something to calm my soul.

I really like this book, the solawat is really many, all di-ijazahkan by the kiyais and Habibs of Indonesia and some from Mecca.
I havent been able to read all of it or even amalkan any of it.
But I like Solawat Amin and Solawat Halabi.
Im supposed to read Solawat Amin 11xs before I sleep every night... unfortunately, everytime I read it, after about 3xs, I just slip into dreamland.

Solawat Amin.
ALLAHUMMA SOLLI ALLA SAYYIDINAA MUHAMMADININ NABIYYIL AMIIN,
ALMAB'UU TSU ROHMATAN LIL'ALAMIN,
SOLAATAN TUFARRIJU BIHAA'ANNAA MAA NAHNU FIIHI MIN UMUURI DIININAA WADUN-YAANAA WA-UKHRAANAA WA'ALAA AALIHII WASOHBIHI WASALLIM.

YA ALLAH ! Curahkanlah rahmat dan kesejahteraan ke atas junjungan kami Nabi Muhammad s.a.w , nabi yang dipercayai, yang diutus sebagai Rahmat bagi semesta alam; sebagai rahmat yang membuka pintu keluar dari kesulitan bagi kami, sama ada dalam urusan agama, dunia dan akhirat; dan curahkanlah pula rahmat dan kesejahteraan ke atas keluarganya dan para sahabatnya.

Innallàha wa malâikatahû yusallûna 'alan-nabiyy, yâ ayyuhalladhîna âmanû sallû alayhi wa sallimû taslîmâ. (Allah and His angels send blessings on the Prophet: O ye that believe! Send ye blessings on him, and salute him with all respect.) 33:56

From a P to the O !

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Its midweek... somehow this week, im not looking forward to the weekends...amidst all the tension there is, I'd rather drown myself in work.

Yes, K kin is right...my blog has depressing entries these days... well, thats how things are really, I have good days, and I have really sucky days...
niwei, thanks for all the comments.. wah, i guess what i face is not something new, many many of us have face such people in our lives.

Well, rather than feeling all choked up, this morning, i have some new-found confidence...I told hubby that my mission is to get everybody whose close to me to be on good terms.

From now on, whenever there is unhappiness said to me about someone, I will give a positive outlook to the problem instead of just listening or giving negative thoughts.

I want to be optimistic, not pessimistic.

Just a few days back, I told hubby to describe me in 3 words, he said Pessimistic, hardworking and stubborn. Ok, he laugh at the stubborn part but he was serious when he said pessimistic ! So there, i got a wake up call.

Isnt it good to be positive ? Refreshing indeed. Life is indeed a journey to Ihsan.

motivational words...

Trying to be a better person is not easy.

The stronger your iman, the more difficult the tests.

But then again,
Allah will not test us beyond our capabilities.

Allah knows best.

And as our iman goes stronger,

so does our endurance level.

So dont fret..

Patience is a painful process thats why its a virtue.
:)

''mummy fuzzywuzzy''

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Taken from Hilal Ibn Al-Ala from the book ''THE BEGINNING OF GUIDANCE'' Written by Imam Ghazali (r.a)
'' When I forgave and bore no rancour to anyone,
I gave rest to myself from anxiety about enemies.
I greet my enemy when I see him,
That I may expel evil by greetings.
I express cheerfulness to a man I hate
as if he has done many delightful things for me. ''

Imam Ghazali (ra) said

'' There is another thing which will keep you from backbiting fellow Muslims, namely, you should examine yourself to see whether there is any open or hidden vice in you and whether you are committing any sins, secretly or publicly.

If you find that this is so in your own case, you may be sure that the other man's inability to free himself from what you attribute to him is similar to your liability, and his excuse is similar to you excuse.

Just as you dont like to be openly criticized and having your vices mention, so does he.

If you veil him, GOD will veil your faults for you.

If you criticize him openly, God will give sharp tongues of power over you to impair your reputation in this world and in the world to come, and God will criticize you before all creatures on the Day of resurrection. ''

Visit to the Pead...

Little Habib visited the paediatrician for the first time this morning since we left ESH 8 mths ago.

We went to Kidzlink and met Dr LIM. I needed to get a specialist view on my baby before I can at least be at ease.

First, was the phlegm issue.
The DR gave him medicine for his phlegm and a syrup to open up his airways. The rashes on his soft tender skin was most probably due to the phlegm infection but DR Lim didnt want to start him on anti-biotic yet.

Little Habib have been sticky, clingy and most manja these few days as he's sick. MIL says '' budak nak bijak macam gitu.. ''
huh ?
Ok, maybe its one for the old people saying.

Next, we consulted the DR on the milk woes.

Thankfully, the DR has assured us that milk is just a commercialised drink. Little Habib can get his DHAs and HAs and Choline , Iron and Taurine all from food such as fish, tofu n eggs.
Cheese can only be given after 1 year of age, so is fresh milk ( which by the way Little Habib loves )...

Our findings when checking his weight and height is that he is growing steadily well. The chart in his health booklet shows that he is in the 50 percentile group of babies his age, so thats not too bad.
Apparently, some babies loves milk and dont want to eat semi-solids, while some babies like little Habib takes food but dont want milk. I have to just go with the flow and give him what he wants because getting worried over his milk woes is really beyond my control since Ive tried mostly all advise given.

Last Saturday, I tried to dilute his milk, put in only 1 scoop in 4 oz of water, and he drank.. goodness, eventhough theres just little milk in the water, at least, he drank it in... but the next day, he found out the trick n refused again.

Im quite drained...Ive just YET to try feeding him milk through a syringe in which I find completely depressing to try....

This is the time where I tawakkal to Allah whose most merciful and loving, and ask for his guidance.

''Oh little boy of mine, y can you drink milk as easily as what you name means ? hee hee... just
somethings that makes me laugh when I think abt it..''

Anniversary Weekend.

My weekend was spent at Royal Plaza on Scotts using their local weekend rate inclusive of breakfast. Quite attractive I suppose but whats more useful to me was their Halal Kitchen.

The hotel was so kind to present us with a complimentary fruit basket and a really chocolaty Tiramitsu cake when hubby told them that its our wedding anniversary in our booking email.

Amidst all the milk woes anxieties and Little Habib being sick with phlegm, I went ahead with our mini vacation upon the assurance of my mum.

Too mini I suppose, but its fun, never stayed in a Singapore hotel before...and it was booked in advance to celebrate our 2 years wedding anniversary.

The rest was much needed for this worried mind, the hotel breakfast was in luxury ( cant do it too often ) , and doing something different during the weekend was a good change. Last weekend, housework was furthest from my mind as the house was clean during Good Friday.

Most of all, Im thankful that after a year of laughter, tears, fears , happiness , irritation, adoration, lots of sharing , lots of conversations about our future, we made it to the second year...Alhamdullilah.

God willing, we will be soulmates in love, forever... Amin.

Little Habib enjoying the plush bed when he visited us...

view of our room...

Complimentary from the hotel.... : )

120 ml....

Thanks for all the doa and advise. May Allah bless all of you.

I love all my friends u know..even though I don't have much friends unlike my hubby aka Dato'' Bandar, I still have good ones that I know i can turn too when I need them..

Well, I realized that my post yesterday was overly emotional or abit coo coo, but it really captured the reall essence of my feelings.

It could be due to the fact that Im very stressed up at work since Im on email duty this month and most of the emails are complaints which are baseless and I have to spend time investigating things which will later turn out to be not a complaint matter to begin with. sick !

Alhamdullilah, my feelings or rather my mind is quite stable today.

Yesterday, Little Habib drank 120ml / 2oz of milk for the lunch feed.
My mum's helper managed to trick him into drinking his milk with his cereals. Instead of giving him plain water in between the spoonful of cereals, she gave him milk in a bottle instead and he didn't realize it was milk because of the cereal which is still in his mouth.. ! ok, so we tricked him.. but if tricking my son will make milk go into his body, its not a bad thing isn't it ....

At night, he refuse milk again, so the same trick was administered and the trick was successful again. Hee !

Yesterday night, hubster and me sat in the baby room and recited Ratib AlHadad. We have always believed in the power of the sahibul ratib and during scary or sad events, we would sit down and recite it together like how our ustaz would bring it at Ansar.

I really felt better. It was like a release because at the end of Ratib, we doa our hearts out for little Habib, and I hope that no matter milk or no milk, I just pray that he will be healthy and happy. Like one of my comments mention, doa ibu is still the best..so I doa for Little Habib and I told my mum to doa for me.

After that, I open up my email and read an email forwarded to me by Ummu Muchtaar which was a reply from a lady who is from some breastfeeding association in the States. Though she was applying the reply for a baby who is above 1 yr old and above, I gathered much facts and again, it made me feel better, at least with the knowledge that I gain from it..
i will email to this lady soon.

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''My name is Zoe and I am a breastfeeding counselor with the Association of Breastfeeding Mothers.

I understand that your baby weaned from the breast about 4 months ago and that you are worried about his diet.Between 1 and 2 years babies only need 400ml milk per 24hours, which can easily be substituted by yogurt and cheese and your baby is certainly getting this much milk.

Additionally, you mention that the baby will only drink off a spoon. Have you tried setting a range of cups in front of him and letting him try each one and chose for himself?

I suggest reading a book by Gill Rapley called, "Baby Led Weaning" it will really help you with your mealtimes.

Here is some information about milk which should help:Milk is really just a convenient source of calcium, protein, fats, vitamin D, etc. - it's not required. There are many people in many parts of the world who do not drink milk and still manage to get all the calcium, protein, fats, vitamin D, etc. that they need.Good non-dairy sources of protein include meats, fish, peas & beans (chick peas, lentils, baked beans, etc.), tofu and other soy products, boiled eggs, peanut and other nut butters (if your child is not allergic).

Good non-dairy sources of fats include soy and safflower oils, flax seed and flax seed oil, walnuts, fish and fish oils, avocado. Adding fats to cooking and baking can work well, for example, stir fry in safflower oil or make mini-muffins with soy or rice milk, oil or butter, and eggs.

Calcium may be derived from many nondairy sources.Vitamin D can be supplied by sunlight exposure and food sources.You can incorporate milk into your child's diet in other ways. Many children like cheese, whole-fat yogurt or ice cream.

You can also put milk into various food products: pancakes, waffles, muffins, French toast, scrambled eggs, mashed potatoes, and baked goods.

Good luck with your baby and second arrival.
Zoe NyeIBCLC, ABM counsellor
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My dad also said that when he was a baby, his parents were too poor to give him and his siblings milk, and they were given Barley water instead, and they still grew up smart, in fact, my aunt became a DR. So milk or no milk, there are many other factors that contribute to a person's intellectual growth.

Of course, if possible, Milk is still a very good source for growing babies.

Hunger Strike !

I am exhausted but Im fighting. I will not give up on my baby. Never.

But it just breaks my heart. I feel like crying but I have to remain strong.

For the last 2 nights, Little Habib went on a hunger strike, screaming and tearing refusing milk or any form of food until it was way past all our bed time. I shant divulge in more because I will leave these feelings for only GOD to know and may he increase our iman with this minor test that he has befall on me and hubby.

my mind is a confuse wreck yet I have to stay focus and not give up on my baby's chaotic behavior in regards to drinking milk.I was almost so sure that he have isolated himself from feeding woes and started being manageable in getting milk in his system but alas, babies are smart and what they dont want is almost impossible to force.

I really need devine intervention.

Lahaula wala quwata illah billah hil alliyil adzhim.

P/s for those who care, esp izhar, ihsan , ummu nabil, mummy Fuzzywuzzy , K kin , sis Nur... can u spare a doa for little Habib in yr prayers to like drinking milk? Insyallah...

Ummi miss you....

I drag my feet each day to work. I cant wait for it to be log off time. It was never like this before I became a mother.

The feeling is getting worse. If only I am a housewife.. but I shouldn't say such things. Because a truly soleha will not dwell on ''What Ifs and If only '' ...

Rabbi Yassir wala'tu asir.

I miss my son, each time Im at work, I think about what is he doing.. Is he calling out to my mum's helper who may be ignoring him because she's busy with her chores ?

I wish I was beside him. Even when Im lying beside him, I would miss him. There I go again.

Little Habib have started attempting to wave his tiny hands up and down as if he has a broken wrist. Its cute because he does it with his left hand instead of the right. Again Im not the first to find this out.

I wouldnt be surprise if '' Ummi '' is not his first words but of cos, I would hope it is.
So far, he spoke BAAAA BAAAA .... and hubby says its means ABAH..so Abah is his first words... Not fair lah.. ''BAAAA'' is no much easier to say than ''MIIIII'' what...

Little Udin is so taqwa for a little boy.. May Little Habib posses the same alim qualities. Amin.

Its Feeding milk again ! : )

Little Habib drinking milk again last night after a 2 months break.

This ummi is truly happy today, because Little Habib has re-started drinking milk in a bottle again ! Im smiling silly in my office today.

Thanks to our consultation with Dr Halina from Fitra Clinic in Bedok. She advised me and hubby to try this method. Strictly, No food after 5pm, just like what she does to her 9mth old son.

Actually this DR is my abang-sedara nya wife. And when I met her at my kakak sedara's house yesterday, and she was sitting beside us when we were eating, we decided to pour our milk woes to her.. with God's will, she is a pro at this issue, and she gave us many tips and encouragement.

Putting milk in Little Habib's semi solids is just not enough for him. Feeding him 3 semi solids meal a day is just too much. No wonder he is not drinking milk, because he is too full.

At 8 mths, he still needs alot of milk for his development. he may still be chubby now, but she said, once Little habib starts running around, the weight loss will be drastic as he doesn't get enough milk.

She also suspects that someone at home has been giving him sweet stuff, thats why he refuse to drink Formula milk which is actually tasteless. Hmmm , apa nak buat, as a FTWM, i cant be with him 24hrs right.

With that advise, I went to my mum, told her about this new rule ''NO FOOD AFTER 5PM, just MILK ''. Its something like a starving technique. When baby is hungry, he will take whatever you give him. This is basic Human Nature survival. Also i exaggerated abit that if Little habib tak minum susu, he will be abit slow etc.. hehehe..

My mum was all for this plan, as she really wants her grandson to be smart and healthy, but I faced some resistance from my dad who said that he cannot bear to see his grandchild being made to starve during his dinner time. But actually, I know he was ok with this method too. He just wanted to be the good one in Little habib's eyes and be protective.

And so yesterday, we went home and tried this technique. And Alhamdullilah, it worked! I really thank Allah for answering our prayers. Me and hubby have been making special doa for our little baby, for him to start liking milk again. Imagine he was without his milk in a bottle for a whole 2 months.

so, Little Habib drank at 7pm, then again at 10pm and this morning, he woke up cranky which is unusual. So amidst getting ready for work, I took him to the kitchen, put him on the cabinet while I made milk for him, just 90ml because I wasnt sure if he would drink or not. When the milk was ready, he grabbed the bottle and put it to his mouth.... Ohhh... i was soo happy, should have made more lah.

and My mum just called me. She had put Rusk biscuits in Little habibs Bottle and made the hole in the teat a little bigger and tried giving him from the bottle and he guzzle all of it.

I guess, the phase of pushing away MILK is finally over ? Insyallah....

Maulid weekend..

Alhamdullilah.. I managed to squeez in 3 majlis maulidur rasul over the weekend.

On Friday night ( 12 rabiulawal), after a very tired Friday, I ended off my day at Masjid Al-Ansar where Ustaz Hasan Saifouridzal led Maulid Diba'i to celebrate the birth of our prophet Muhammad (s.a.w).

I sat with my usual crowd, happy that I was reunited again with my friends with niat to share our love for Rasullullah (s.a.w). It was also a reunion with Imam Ad Daiba'i's maulid of which i seemed to be far from ever since I was exposed to Maulid Al-Habshi. My ustaz being as emotional as ever, cried when he gave sermons on the last moments of our prophet and how till his last breath, he still professed UMATTI.. UMATTI.. UMATTI...this made most of us in the jemaah teary eyed.

After the maulid, we feast on Nasi Ambeng which hubby missed out because he decided to reunited with his friends and nasi Briyani Dam at Masjid Khalid.

Sat Morning, the over-enthusiastic me brought my mum to Masjid Ba'alawi for the nikah ceremony of my friend's sister. Again Maulid Diba'i was recited by Habib Hud Al-Haddad and Habib Hassan Al-Attas.

The whole ceremony was such a blessed event, mainly because it was held in the most islamic way possible. Maulid, doa Maulid, nikah with the men and women sitting separately at a blessed site; Masjid Ba'alwie. I was happy to meet up with Mamu Yasin and our nikah witness Habib Esa. Mummy was also pleasantly surprised that the groom's brother is her good friend's husband. So she made herself at ease there. She also told me that if little Habib was to get married in future, she wanted it to be just like this.. Hmm.. finally! I managed to change her thinking about Nikah at the mosque issue which she just wasnt supportive off previously.

What awe-ed me significantly was what happened to the weather. It was perfect with the sun shining but as soon as the nikah ceremony started, the rain poured and everybody was so happy or shocked from the showers of blessings. I think it was the angels decending from heavens and bringing barakah with them. As soon as the nikah ceremony ended, the rain stopped.

After the nikah and some photo taking, we tucked in the spread. The food was great..imagine Briyani buffet stations, an Anatolia Kebab Stall, a Tosei stall and also delicious hot putu piring... Yummy !!

The Nikah ceremony led by Habib Hassan bin Salim bin Muhammad Al Attas of Ba'alwie and Habib Esa Annaguib Al-Haddad as witness for the men's side.

On Sunday morning, I went for maulidur Rasul at Masjid Mydin where Ustaz Nasarudin Nasir was the guest ustaz. Again, the ceramah was about Rasullulah's (s.a.w) personality which made many people convert to Islam and also about Rasullulah's love for his Umat.

He mentioned on how our prophet Muhammad's (s.a.w) uncle Abu Lahab ( who opposed Islam ), was so happy from the news of Muhammad (s.a.w) birth that he released his slave, Tsuwaiba. With this happiness that he had, Allah (swt) release him from hell's tortures every Monday. So if he who opposed Islam, can be so happy with the birth of Nabi Muhammad, what more us, who are Rasullulah's umat and who prays to Allah ? Isnt it a shame for us if we return to Allah (s.w.t) with the report that we dont have any love for Rasullulah ?

Ustaz Nasaruddin also mentioned this story which Ive heard before many times but it was a good refresher. It was about when Rasulullah (s.a.w) was sick and frail, he went to led prayers and after prayers, he turned and looked at the jemaah. Rasullulah (s.a.w) said if he has debts with anyone, please come forward and claim their debt.

And a dark skinned man put up his hand and said
''Ya Rasullulah, remember you once accidentally hit me with an object. I would like to do the same to you. ''

Now the other sahabahs were every angry at this and Saidinah Omar Alkhattab has raised his sword ready to finish off this man who could bravely said that to Rasullulah who wasnt feeling well already.

But Rasullulah said,
''Its ok Omar. Let this man do the same to me. ''

The man said '' Rasullulah, I would like you to take off your shirt because when you acciedentally hit my back, i wasnt wearing any clothes on my back.''

So Rasullulah took off his shirt. But instead of hitting Rasullulah's ( s.a.w) , the man went to Rasullulah's body and kissed it all over.

Rasullulah ( s.a.w ) said, '' Why did you do that ?''

The man answered ''Ya Rasullulah ( s.a.w), I do not know how long more you will be with us. Later in syurga, you will be at a high place and we cannot be with you anymore. Who are we compared to you ? I will miss you Ya Rasullulah.''

And Rasullulah ( s.a.w ) answered '' Whoever loves me, will be together with me, in heaven.''
With that, Ustaz Nasaruddin said that it is not a lost to love our prophet so much and always mentioning his sirah, hadis and sunnah. After all, Isnt loving Rasullulah ( s.a.w ) a path that leads us to love Allah ( s.w.t) ?