Slowly, I can feel that material stuff means very little to me anymore...
Once....I used to dream of these things.
I dont know if this change in me is temporary or will it be something eternal.
When someones tells me about such worldly and material stories, I smile and pretend to listen, even nodding but only God knows how I simply hate hearing such stories.
Next time maybe, when I have the courage, I'll tell the person that I am not interested to hear such details...
Finally... I took the step to pray to GOD to not allow any worldly desires enter my heart. I pray that my heart do not crave for these worldly desires anymore. It is not easy but after reading an article on Facebook by sis Muna, I lowered my head and make dua that my heart is cleanse.
Now, each time I think of a COACH bag, I think of how many packs of diapers I can buy with the money. When I think of eating at expensive restaurants, I think of how many cheaper but happy meals I can get with the money. U know what I mean right.
We still have dreams, of an upgrade in housing, holidays and fun trips but nothing that is wasteful. All our dreams and ambitions now focus on the kids happiness.It could be my loss of income,
it could be listening to my friends whose Iman is like a mountain compared to mine,
it could be listening to my hubby....
I dont know, but lately, I seem to HATE people talking about their worldly possessions.
Its OK to talk about it cos your really happy about it but when the talking reach a certain point when its considered boastful, my heart crumbles, I feel like just walking away from the conversations.
The other day, someone was telling me stories about someone she knows (a commoner) who earns so much and is so rich, he only eats at hotel restaurants. He lets others know his earnings and he only buys branded items.
While hearings her go on and on about this person's wealth, I dont know why, I just wanted to run away, puking.
Its like my heart hates hearing these worldly stories, that I just want to yell "enough about these worldly tales!".
I just dont want to hear anymore and its really not because I was jealous.
I would be so happy if we muslims can be rich and afford expensive and quality things, but when these items becomes stuff that is boast about, it becomes something that I hate.
Seriously, spare me the details. I just dont envy such people. Its the people with huge Iman and Taqwa that I envy most and want to be like.
Honestly, humbleness is a Virtue and being Thankful with what you have, is a trait of a Mukmin.
Words from my dearest Ukhti.
"Bagi hamba, anti adalah diantara mereka yang paling kaya. Punyai kesihatan pacaindera, jasmani ruhani, keluarga, Ayah Bunda, Suami berserta zuriat dll. Sedangkan ada diantara mereka yang tidak punyai salah satu dari nya ataupun kesemua nya sekali. Kaya bagi diri hamba ianya terletak pada hati.
Apabila kita mengenangkan mereka yang bersusah payah dan serba-serbi kekurangan didalam kehidupan mereka, senantiasa akan terbit rasa syukur yang amat sangat didalam hati.
Kita bisa sahja melihat orang itu kaya tetapi mungkin dia tidak bahagia, seandai nya dia bahagia, mungkin didunia sahja, di Akhirat sana nanti? Tidak salah sama sekali, seandai nya kita ingin mencontohi mereka didalam usaha mereka untuk mencapai kejayaan, (sudah tentu usaha yang Redhai ALLAH serta RasulNYA), tetapi berhati-hatilah wahai diri, kerna kekayaan dan kejayaan didunia ini adalah fana`, sementara di Akhirat sana nanti adalah kekal abadi."
spoken like a true muslimah.