Another major setback in my life.
Another first that I have to go through.
I wasn’t able to sleep well last night, a feeling of regret and disappointment and hurt and sadness.
I got up earlier before Subuh and read Ratib AlHaddad. After that I wanted very much to talk to God about my feelings but there was just a numb feeling, so I sat at my sejadah and had a silent conversation with Allah. My heart spoke of my worries and sadness.
Losing one’s job is a bitter disappointment when one loves his/her job.
Sadly, that was the painful feeling I had to go through when I was told that I would be losing my job due to a re-org and our work will be outsourced to a Manila call centre.
Decision was already made by our London office. Trust them to give me this news in the midst of a recession.
I believe in Qadak and Qadar, Its part of Rukun Iman. Somehow, part of me Redha that for the first time after my school days, I am actually out of a job. The heart is weak and worried, but yes, it Redhas, after all, Rizk is in God’s hands.
I will have to pray hard, read more of Surah Al-Waqiah for Rezeki and just be Yaqin.
So come 01 Dec 08, once maternity leave starts, I can officially say "Im a housewife", till I find another job…. Insya'Allah. I am hoping this is a blessing in disguise.
For now, no more SPA-ing, COACH bag Buy-ing, High DinING and Toy-R-US-ING. This experience has "humble-lize" me….
Inna Lillahhi Wa Inna Illaihi Rajiuun.