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Thursday, November 13, 2008

What else can I say ?

Another major setback in my life.

Another first that I have to go through.

I wasn’t able to sleep well last night, a feeling of regret and disappointment and hurt and sadness.

I got up earlier before Subuh and read Ratib AlHaddad. After that I wanted very much to talk to God about my feelings but there was just a numb feeling, so I sat at my sejadah and had a silent conversation with Allah. My heart spoke of my worries and sadness.

Losing one’s job is a bitter disappointment when one loves his/her job.


Sadly, that was the painful feeling I had to go through when I was told that I would be losing my job due to a re-org and our work will be outsourced to a Manila call centre.
Decision was already made by our London office. Trust them to give me this news in the midst of a recession.

I believe in Qadak and Qadar, Its part of Rukun Iman. Somehow, part of me Redha that for the first time after my school days, I am actually out of a job. The heart is weak and worried, but yes, it Redhas, after all, Rizk is in God’s hands.

I will have to pray hard, read more of Surah Al-Waqiah for Rezeki and just be Yaqin.

So come 01 Dec 08, once maternity leave starts, I can officially say "Im a housewife", till I find another job…. Insya'Allah. I am hoping this is a blessing in disguise.

For now, no more SPA-ing, COACH bag Buy-ing, High DinING and Toy-R-US-ING. This experience has "humble-lize" me….

Inna Lillahhi Wa Inna Illaihi Rajiuun.

8 comments:

Adikbongsu said...

insya'Allah it will be a blessing in disguise ...yg penting skrg focus on having an easy and safe delivery. Enjoy ur time with the kids and slowly plan for the future.

agak2 dpt golden handshake tak? kalo dpt, alhamdulillah can help for the time being while you recover from childbirth and find a new job :)

take care sis *hugs*

Anonymous said...

Keep on trying use your network of friends to look out for jobs. You have the flexibility going for job interviews once u give birth after some rest. Insya Allah you'll find a decent job.

These times its safer for both parents to work in case something happened, except for those ppl who still believed in iron rice bowl esp civil service who do not think of their counterparts in private sector.

ksri said...

Yes,insya'Allah dik..satu pintu ditutup,with yaqin in Allah for all that is happening,another door of happiness awaits you..yaqin terus ya dik..
Positively thinking, you can recover and focus well after birth..hang in there dik..you will be fine ok..hugs*

Anonymous said...

Have faith, these are trying times. You might consider registering yourself with an employment agency as an alternative. It would be good if you can send out feelers to friends that you are looking. Meanwhile, concentrate on your pregnancy and safe delivey for mother and child.

Ihsan said...

insya'Allah, rizk will come your way, and something better for you.

try posting up resumes online and register with employment agencies.

I was retrenched before too in the previous recession, so I know how it feels. Hang in there.

May Allah and Rasul always be with you.

ukhti27 said...

BismiLlah wal HamduliLlah wa laa haula wa laa quwwata illaa biLlahil `aliyil `adzhiim.

As-Salamu`alaikum wa RahmatuLlahi wa Barakatuh dan salam penghulu segala hari :)

Ya Habibati,

Kita merancang, ALLAH jua merancang, namun rancangan ALLAH Subhana wa Ta`ala jualah sebaik-baik rancangan untuk kita di dunia mahupun di akhirat sana nanti.

Pasti nya, ada sulaman hikmah di sebalik kejadian ini. Semoga ALLAH Subhana wa Ta`ala mengantikan perkerjaan ini dengan yang lebih baik. ALLAHumma amiin.

Semoga ALLAH Subhana wa Ta`ala meluaskan rezki anti dan senantiasa memberi mu bimbingan yang sempurna dalam segala perkara-perkara yang diredhaiNYA dengan kejayaan dan kebahagiaan.

Sesungguh nya, bumi dan langit ini adalah milik ALLAH Subhana wa Ta`ala, maka ALLAH Subhana wa Ta`ala akan memberikan nya kepada yang dikehendakiNYA :)

`Ala kulli hal, kesihatan dan keselamatan mu ya Habibati beserta kandungan mu adalah yang paling penting untuk diutamakan.

Semoga saat kelahiran nanti, ibu berserta bayi dalam keadaan selamat. Semoga bayi dalam keadaan sihat wal `afiah serta dalam keadaan yang sempurna sifat nya. ALLAHumma amiin.

P/s: Untuk memudahkan mencari rezeki, kita sama-sama amalkan doa Nabi Musa Alaihisalam ini dan teruskanlah berusaha, insya`ALLAH Ta`ala :)

Suratul Qashash ayat 24 :
رب إني لما أنزلت إلي من خير فقير


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Fi amaniLlah wALLAHu a`lam bisawab.

Ummi's Blog said...

Salaams...

Thanks for all the support and encouragement! You all have posted some v good comments and advise..May Allah Swt bless u...Masya'Allah....
Amiin to your doas...

Kak Banun : yes, insya'allah co will give me maternity benefits ( according to MOM law ) and some remuneration $$ so insya'allah that will ease some financial tension when the baby is born.. duit pampers etc...*hugs*

Anonymous 1 : yes, agree in tough times safer to have both parents working provided there is suitable child care arrangements for the small kids. Not all couples have that luxury.

Ksri : Kak, I really hope to be positive.. tapi the worry is still there.. I know some people who have been looking for jobs for many months before finding one.. May Allah help me in this. *hugs*

Anonymous 2 : Yes, intend to revamp my resume and send to employment agencies.. Really hope companies start hiring next year.

Ihsan : Sis..pls doa for me in yr prayers. You know what Im like right...Sesungguhnya I am hanging on to Allah and Rasullulah in my sadness...
Trying to be strong *hugs*

Ukhti27 : Masya'allah Ana sangat terharu dengan nasihat anti..dan terima kasih atas memberi ana tahu tentang doa Suratul Qashash. Akan ana amal kan. Semoga Allah memberkati Anti atas jasa baik anti ini.

hid said...

Salams Ummi,

I hope you are doing fine there. I was quite shocked after reading your blog after so long I was rather busy with my work.

Insyallah, Tuhan bukakan pintu rezeki yg lebih baik for you and your family.

Right now, dont think too hard and i hope you be fine for your delivery.

Insyallah, we will meet really soon in December. :)