Its been awhile... not that I've forgotten you....
I have not been in the best of moods lately hence the hiatus. Actually, its no good to have an angry blog, so I decided to be quiet for awhile.
Some things are really bothering me and I need time to clear it out of my system. Furthermore, topped with a terrible cough, I didnt have the mood to write.
In fact, Im in a lousy mood now. Its the first time Im ever wearing foundation with compact powder on my face and. I wonder if I feel lousy because my skin is not breathing ! Im not a person who wears make up, more of a baby powder and lipstick lady, but lately, someone has commented that I look plain and needs to revamp my look.
And another someone commented that I should start carrying branded bags. Yeah, again Im in the topic of branded bags. Never ending it seems. Am I to be looked down upon if I dont carry a branded bag ? Im wondering if that person said that because she really genuinely cares for me or because she's just someone who thinks of worldly things. Its just not me yet Im so easily influenced.
Im still in between 2 path. Its either I revamp my look , style and material things or I throw all those thoughts away and concentrate on being a person who does not care of material things. Will you still like me if Im just a simple lady who carries a cheap handbag ? Will you still like me if I dont use expensive baju kurung ? Will you sill be close to me if I dont have expensive things like you do ?
I also feel that Im really slacking on my ibadah or reading eversince Ramadhan left. My religious classes are still close and it seems that Im getting further from my destination which is to be a pious person.
Next week , masjid Sultan will be holding the haul of Almarhum Ustaz Abdillah. Its sad that he has left us. He is my best guru. Habib Abbas is already old and uzur too. I seriously worry for my son's future. Who can he hold on to considering Singapore seems short of ulama's. I can only think of Ustaz Hasbi bin Hasan or Ustaz Hasan Saifouridzal at this moment. Or maybe Dentist Ahmad, can we put little habib under your wings ?
My hubby's is going for a job interview tomorrow, insya'allah if he gets this job, then alot of things will change. I guess for one, branded bags might no longer be an issue. I pray that if its for the better, May Allah grant us this rezeki.
Im also on leave tomorrow. I need the rest. It feels like morning sickness today but it just cant be lah.. maybe its just PMS.
till then.. i'll talk to you again when I feel better.