I did it.. Ive rejected them. A load off my mind.
Though I feel so so guilty not listening to hubby's advise, I feel that I know myself better and my limitations.
I am not one who will slog like a career woman for the $$.
I treasure my time after work, and Im not very willing to stay after work hours even when the pay is so good because all I want to do is rush home and be with my baby and my family and my home.
very much a trade of a domestic manager ? But sadly, not able to afford staying at home for the moment as I still enjoy going to work in a 9-5 job and we still have some loans on our shoulder.
This job that i was recommended by offered me monetary gains but with higher pay means higher expectations and if it means I must stay back to do testings for any online loads, then I must do it. Work performance must be there otherwise 0 bonus.
And there is a possibility of work on Sundays if any clients request although not very often.
An ex colleague of mine left that place after just 8 months as she could not take the demands of the job. I fret if she a senior cant handle it, i might not as well, of course this is only an assumption of my capabilities.
Im am thankful with my current job, the pay is acceptable for my living, able to go home on time, good colleagues, good working atmosphere, nice office but there is one major factor which makes me must move on and I will continue finding for the right job and hopefully the next time, my heart will feel more incline towards it. Insyallah...
Another chapter of my life has gone by. Whether I dealt with it correctly or not, i can only hope Allah (swt) forgive me.