Alhamdullilah, It’s a Friday ! Shiokness.. Fridays always light up my mood.
I know, it is still early…what another 4 weeks before I should really prepare for delivery ? But I think about the delivery everyday. All the time. With a smile.
I don’t know why, I feel prepare to face the pain. Maybe cos Ive been through it before, so it rather exciting to feel it again. Well, I still pray its not as painful. Some people say the 2nd delivery will be much easier. Guess I am learning to chill !
My hubby pulak don’t show much excitement over the labour. Im guessing he thinks that If I can do it the first time, then it should be no problem the 2nd time ah. Chey…maybe he will sleep while I go through those awful contractions pains. The first time, he was busy reading selawats and blowing them on my forhead. Ahah….But he does talk to our baby in our tummy alot and he has felt adik moving my tummy..cos this baby of mine seems to move alot....
When I got pregnant this 2nd time around, I thought it would be an easy ride. But in reality is, no 2 individuals are the same and no 2 pregnancies are the same. Looking back, Its been 8 painful months so far, but I am thankful, baby and me are still fine. I am still having heartburn by the way.
I know.... it’s a little too late… Yar at 32 weeks, I realize that staying positive is essential. It is a mind game.
I have to constantly have patience because once the baby is out, it might be another round of sleepless nights, crying, breastfeeding, rushing to warm the milk, changing diapers and not to mention, also caring for my son, Little Habib.
Insya’allah my mum will be by my side, but this time, I hope to be more independent. I hope my mum's helper too can handle my baby well, though I doubt so, since is a 23year old single who took quite long to warm up to my son in the first place.
Though I feel heavy, and my walking shows it already, I will try to walk more often to improve my cardiovascular fitness. I have also started doing Kegel exercises as there is evidence suggesting that strong pelvic floor muscles may shorten the pushing stage of labour. For Little Habib’s labour, I pushed about 5 times before he came out.
I day-dreamed a few days ago what it will be like to hold adik in my arms. Within seconds, my eye started to tear. Can you imagine holding your own daughter ? Masya’allah….. They say a daughter will be close to the mother. Just like me and my mum.
Allahumma salli 'ala Sayyidina Muhammadin wa 'ala ali Sayyidina Muhammad
Innallàha wa malâikatahû yusallûna 'alan-nabiyy, yâ ayyuhalladhîna âmanû sallû alayhi wa sallimû taslîmâ. (Allah and His angels send blessings on the Prophet: O ye that believe! Send ye blessings on him, and salute him with all respect.) 33:56