To whoever's reading,
Yes, im sinking in depression, but sometimes i float up again,
beneath this cheery, bubbyly, smiley exterior of Ummi, is now a malancholic soul who prays for the day, she'll overcome this challenge that Allah s.w.t has given her.
Work is tough, its extremely tough to her who has been all along a sheltered daughter and a protected wife.
Maybe thats why Allah has thrown her in a pit hole of uncertanties for her to fight, which unfortunately she may not be strong enough for but with Allah's protection, she sometimes tries , walks out to work each day and tawakkal, sometime cries when her efforts fails.
Ramadhan is coming, she hopes it will bring her Barakah, after all , it is known as "Shahrul Barakah or the month of Blessings."
I may not know u or I may know u, but thanks for taking the time to contribute to give me strength to keep on this battle in my life. I feel touch by your words. Yes, I am soft like that.
I know there is a silver lining. I believe there is Hikmah to everything. I just pray the silver lining will comes sooner. Ive posted this here in case there is anyone out there facings problems in their lives in whatever manner it comes be it work, marriage , health , may this words give you some sort of strength too.
" SalaamUmmi, you are very blessed. You at least have somebody to talk to and somebody to give you harsh words. think about people who dont have anybody to turn to and suffer in silence and hold the hands of innocent chlidren, when they offer tissues to wipe your tears. There is a silver lining in every dark cloud. Allah will send angels to protect you when you are sinking in depression and you will emerge very strong. hey, think that your hard work is counted as an ibadhah.Allah sense you are innocent and you dont have a choice and you really need to work hard to stay away from this wordly attractions. Do you want to be a stay at home and a busy body. I am sure you are not that kind of person. Allah is watching you and He is holding your hands, you wont fall.
take careluv and regard "