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Monday, September 3, 2007

To whoever's reading,

Yes, im sinking in depression, but sometimes i float up again,
beneath this cheery, bubbyly, smiley exterior of Ummi, is now a malancholic soul who prays for the day, she'll overcome this challenge that Allah s.w.t has given her.
Work is tough, its extremely tough to her who has been all along a sheltered daughter and a protected wife.
Maybe thats why Allah has thrown her in a pit hole of uncertanties for her to fight, which unfortunately she may not be strong enough for but with Allah's protection, she sometimes tries , walks out to work each day and tawakkal, sometime cries when her efforts fails.

Ramadhan is coming, she hopes it will bring her Barakah, after all , it is known as "Shahrul Barakah or the month of Blessings."

To anonymous,
I may not know u or I may know u, but thanks for taking the time to contribute to give me strength to keep on this battle in my life. I feel touch by your words. Yes, I am soft like that.
I know there is a silver lining. I believe there is Hikmah to everything. I just pray the silver lining will comes sooner. Ive posted this here in case there is anyone out there facings problems in their lives in whatever manner it comes be it work, marriage , health , may this words give you some sort of strength too.

" SalaamUmmi, you are very blessed. You at least have somebody to talk to and somebody to give you harsh words. think about people who dont have anybody to turn to and suffer in silence and hold the hands of innocent chlidren, when they offer tissues to wipe your tears. There is a silver lining in every dark cloud. Allah will send angels to protect you when you are sinking in depression and you will emerge very strong. hey, think that your hard work is counted as an ibadhah.Allah sense you are innocent and you dont have a choice and you really need to work hard to stay away from this wordly attractions. Do you want to be a stay at home and a busy body. I am sure you are not that kind of person. Allah is watching you and He is holding your hands, you wont fall.
take careluv and regard "


nor said...

salaam Ummi,

ive been in that kinda situations many times...most times i'll fumble..most times i cried so hard..most times, felt im so weak..but with Allah being there for me (us)..things will fall in place (again),insya allah.

hangin' there & be strong..we have ALLAH to cling on.

btw, im mite the attending Shayk Kabbani lecture this Friday with my hubby , insya allah. will u be going?

Ummi's BLOG said...

Salaams Sis Nor,

I think we are lucky that even when all else fails, we have GOD to turn to each time. thks.

No, this friday i dont think so but Maybe Wed at Masjid Aleem Siddique after Magrib.

MissyHid said...

Salaam Ummi,

Insyallah Allah will give u the strength and happiness again one day. In life, there's always ups and downs that we have to go through. Allah will love people who are strong and optimistic because all that happens comes from Allah rite?

Insyallah, I will always remember u in my prayers. :)

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blogs recently, thanks to hubby who told me abt it. Your blogs make me strive to be a better mum, wife and muslimah, not necessarily in that order. I know this is cliche, but things will improve and you will come out a stronger person. For me, there are times when things dont work out well at work; will have a good cry at the ladies cubicle...Many a times I wish I could be SAHM but cant afford it...well this is my lot in life...

Ummi's BLOG said...

dear anonymous..
we r quite similar, i also cry in the ladies cubicle, and worse, i also go to the quiet staircase landing to cry because ppl may here me in the cubicle !

thats how human we are no matter how we project ourself to be..wheather pious, loving, fun, we still have feelings...

Anonymous said...


I may not have the right words to say, so let me share with you some excerpts from Al-Qur'an and wise sayings from the saints of Allah.

1) "...Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." Al-Baqarah:216

2) "...dan jangan kamu berputus asa daripada rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, melainkan kaum yang kafir." Yusuf:87

3) Kata Imam Hasan Al-Basri: Aku tahu rezekiku tidak akan diambil oleh orang lain, kerana itu, hatiku selalu tenang.

4)Kata Imam Al-Fudhail bin Iyadh, yang bermaksud:
"Jika Allah sukakan akan hambaNya, Allah akan tambahkan dukacitanya. Jika Allah marah akan hambaNya, Allah akan luaskan dunia untuknya." - Dengan perasaan dukacita, Allah menarik kita kepadaNya. Kita banyak berdoa dan beribadah serta kembali kepadaNya. Tetapi bagi mereka yang mendapat kemurkaannya, maka dunia ini mewah baginya; mereka bersuka-ria dan enjoy sahaja.

"Siapa yang mengenal manusia, dia akan rasa tenang." - Dia sedar yang tiada manusia yang boleh memberinya kebaikan atau kemudharatan. Semuanya dalam kekuasaan Allah.

"Kami tidak mendapat kelebihan dengan banyak bersolat and berpuasa tetapi dengan kelapangan dada dan kemurahan hati dan nasihat kepada umat." - These ulama although their ibadah is so MashaAllah, they get their much-sought after darjat by having a clean heart free of all sickness like riya' etc. They are also generous not only in terms of wealth.

Shahrl mubarak,
Another sad soul

Anonymous said...

hi darling.. im so sorry to hear about your state.. i really wish there is something i can do to ease the burden.. do remember i am just a call/sms away.. and you are always free to bring little hebib here at my place to mingle with his cuzzins ( cuzzins kan? hehe ) but for now.. i'll offer you a virtual hug and put a thought in my prayers for you.. that you will be able to go through this hurdle.. remember.. susah susah dahulu senang-senang kemudian ;) and i dun know much but i do know that Allah s.w.t tests the one he loves.. i believe you have the stregth to overcome this.. you are one tough babe you know ;)


Ummi's BLOG said...

Salaams to "another sad soul"
oh dear, thanks u for taking the trouble to type all these quotes to cheer me up....
Insyallah, i will be ok..its just that im a v emotional person thats all.. hehee... anyway, what u wrote adds to my faith.

Id, im not that strong..maybe I am but i dont know it..haha... thanks, cuzin.. will bring little Habib insyallah to yr place one day to play with Ilhan..im sure they will like it.. Little Habib pun lonely sometimes..

*hugz* to u too..

Jazzakallah khair..